WI!

I am officially back home for the next few weeks. Yippee! I'm getting pretty excited for Christmas. Although this is my vacation I still have lots of things to do while I'm home. I have big plans for the house, my Schenker analysis, and violin stuff. Oh yes, and some things involving the viola parts for Don G.

Today is the 1 year anniversary of my dad's death. It's really weird. Tomorrow my mom and I are going out to the cemetery to put a wreath on his grave. I'm not quite sure how I feel about everything, but I do know that I'm glad to be home.

Sangria; however, is not all that happy. It rained most of the drive back and she really disliked my windshield wipers. She wanted to get away from the wipers but also wanted to sit on my lap so she hid in my elbow for several hours. Pretty cute.


She has been in my room all day and doesn't like to come out for very long. BUT. She does have a new favorite place to sit and looks quite festive with her Santa water cup. :)


Safe travels to everyone!

also.

I got to see this guy again. He's great...I can't express that enough.

has anyone seen michi lately? anyone...?

For a variety of reasons, I've been feeling a bit lost lately. At most times over the past few weeks I don't feel like myself. I think that I've figured out why I feel this way, but now I have to start the torturous process of "rebuilding." I've had to do this on occasion before and I recall it not being the easiest of tasks. If I remember correctly, lots of soul-searching, thinking, and practicing usually does the trick.

Through these unhappy Michi moments, I feel lucky to have a good support system.

Since my last post, I have done many things such as:

- deliver a pomegranate to my sister for St. Nick day (aka the day that Jenna and I were adopted day),


- trespass... I mean, take fun pictures in someone's fun lawn,


- watch Chri conduct a cool Honegger piece at the Wind Ensemble Concert,


- and (thanks to my friend, David) have a very thought-provoking violin lesson with Soovin Kim, a fantastic violinist and professor at Stony Brook.

AND! I won some photo prints from Asha Beyer, an amazing photographer, in her recent blog contest!!! I'm so excited to hang them up. There is a wall in my bedroom that is screaming for some beauty and attention. ...Now that I write about all of these good things, I am starting to think that I really don't have things to complain about.

Hope you all are well!

sangria's favorite places to sit.

every day should be thanksgiving

today i woke up feeling grateful for many things:

1. my health. the last few days i've been having a hard time physically and mentally because my nerves are starting to freak out more than a little bit. last night i was a sad, crying mess because of my arms. matt helped me calm down. as i fell asleep, i remembered that there are many people who, health-wise, are much worse off than i am.

2. my boyfriend.
he helps me in so many ways and makes every aspect of my life better.

3. my mom. she's the greatest lady. if you met her, you'd know what i'm talking about. she is a very strong person and has shown this time and time again. i love her lots and am eternally grateful for everything she does for me.

4. my sister. what can i say... twins! we love each other and i can count on her for anything that i need. she's taken a lot of risks in the last few years and i'm very proud of her. :)

5. my friends.

they're just great people. i couldn't ask for better people to be surrounded by every day.

6. my cat. doesn't she look happy to be outside in the snow!? ;)

...what are you thankful for?

commence countdowns.

so, it's been awhile since my last post... i really don't know why either...

since then, i went to new york city to visit matt. he just moved there and is getting used to hectic city life. it's definitely a different environment and atmosphere than i'm used to, but i was quite happy to see him. we did lots of fun things like go to the met to see barber of seville,


and went to brooklyn to visit jenna and see her place. :)


violin stuff has been going pretty well lately. i have definitely had moments of breakdown crying in the past couple of weeks where i think (and complain to matt), "what am i doing with my life!?" however, despite all of that, i've settled into a good place. i feel very motivated and want to get things done... and done well.

right now there are two countdowns going on:

1. matt visits in 14 days! i'm so excited. you have no idea.

2. grad audition pre-screened recordings due in 39 days.

when i'm stressed, i abandon my work and make food.